Rabbits

You say write something about Rabbits
What the hell do I know about Rabbits?
I turn myself inside out trying!
Just to hear you say,” okay, cool”, rather blahly,
Oh, yah, that’s exactly what I wanted to hear.

I tell you it’s trapped inside,
It’s my demon and it haunts me!
But you say, “Try something different,
Something like Rabbits”

Maybe you’d like cats?
Sometimes you piss me off!
Maybe I should write about that!

You’re not excited about what’s inside....
But you say try Rabbits,
I turn myself inside out!
Only to be told to write about Rabbits!

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No Better at perceiving,
Assumptions lead you to the deceptive belief
That in the placidness of the lake,
It holds anything deeper then what you see

Emotional range of a peanut—
Given everything never understanding the cost of anything.
Never feeling till confronted by you own actions.
You can’t even understand the effect your actions cause

Caustic because it’s cool!
Unable to think for yourself,
Still given credit for blessings never earned.
Benefactor of apologies from actions never suffered.

The In Between Time

Cat tails swaying,
Sunshine glistening across Sloan's lake
Boats speed by, skiers going so fast they seem to fly,
So much fun you want to run and jump in
So hot you wish you'd worn shorts in this
The in between time
In the air there's a sweetness
Blossoms still fragrant, but fading
enough to make you nostalgic...
Another summer is about to slip away.
There is something elusive...
Can't put your finger on it,
In the in between time
The nights become crisp like an apple just picked
The trees begin to be mixed green and gold
Some leaves begin to fall...
Not enough to proclaim it is.
Oh, the in between time
A gentle breeze blows
And you receive the subtle scent of decay
Mixed with wood burning,
You imagine marshmallows roasting
The gentle clicking of a few leaves blowing
Makes you long for crunch of yards full under foot
You think of cozy sweaters and cider,
You can almost smell the cinnamon
Filled with the anticipation
Will Autumn hurry up and arrive
In this, the in between time.

New Beginning

New Beginning,
But what they forget is something is
Ending.
All things suddenly left unsaid
The pain in each others eyes…
Look away…
Can’t bear the pain
The Empty moments
The feelings inside
A word....
Suddenly emotions flare,
We’re raging...
Crying...
Holding nothing back...
Going to far...
Saying too much...
That you can’t take back
Damage…
Is done
No ones wrong,
No ones right,
Confusion reigns,
You have a moment...
Think you could stay,
Breaking this would so messy,
But it won’t ever be the same
Change happens too fast,
Then too slowly
Restlessness is supreme
There is nothing to hold onto
While your whole life is unraveling;
Everything fraying at the seams.
Try to occupy your mind,
Any distraction will do,
Keep the grieving at bay.
But it will come,
And you won’t want it to.
It could be a song playing that
suddenly displays your life together
Like a movie in your minds eye
And it's having it’s way with you.
It could be the ordinary occurances
You do everyday and suddenly
Realizing that it will never be the same;
It’s your last fall together
And it’s not even happy, for memories sake
Your friends try to comfort
And you even think, you Believe…..
That it’s a new beginning!

Looking ahead

I am more...
I’m not all you see,
I no longer wish to feel the rain,
I want to feel more like me.
Struggled and fought
I desire to be more then
The sum of what they’ve told me to be,
Told me I was...
I believed...
Now, through the parting of the clouds I can plainly see…
Clarity..... that I can do anything!
I am not a cookie cutter clone;
I don’t fit inside a formula box,
Refreshing to finally begin to learn
That I am more...
That I’m stronger then I thought.
Though weakness clouds my sun,
If I just hold on and, take a walk,
I will become.